We
knew each other in 1990 as students in the same class in same school. Then we
never thought we would make our life together for a long time. I wish I have
you with me now but I am sure I would not write this story if you were here
because as a normal common man, I must not have felt your importance the way I
am feeling now. But I think that’s normal and I know you would never mind for not
giving you much importance. But I have no shame in confessing you now, that my
life without you for the last twenty-four months have been not quite normal. Sadness
dominated happiness, inconveniences fared better than conveniences, failures
took over successes, losses made better than profits, more inhumanely things
happened than humane ones, got salt where sugar was required, and the list is
infinite.
The lady that mattered most to me
Without
you, the house is empty, and I still don’t want to return home after going out
for my official errands. I don’t think I have a home now. I just don’t. I feel
it so difficult to put the mess of your absence into order like you left me
yesterday although it is (exactly) already 24 months today. I see no reason for
you to leave me at this stage of life. I really don’t see the reason. Thank you
John P. Read for writing the following poem for me, it gives me such a
pleasure.
“I
still say I love you
But
there is no reply.
I
always feel your presence
As if
you never left my side.
I
remember your comforting voice.
Now there
is not a sound.
Only echoes
from the past
Follow
me around.
You
are always by my side
But I
can’t hold your hand.
The
reason why God took you
I
find hard to understand.
Summer
days seem much shorter.
Dark
nights just linger on.
Dreams
turn into nightmares
When
the one you love has gone.
But
real love never fades.
It still
burns like the sun.
Although
they are far away.
Those
memories go on and on.
Her
spirit will never die.
It
shines like the stars.
I know
you are sleeping in heaven.
But
you are living in my heart.”
And
yes, as you asked, I have kept your girls at the school you wanted them to
study. I am doing your anniversary ceremonies at the place you want me to do. My
love for you hasn’t changed although you are not around. Love does not die. Love is not like us who die for sure at some of point of time in life.
