TRIBUTE TO THE GREATEST WOMAN OF MY LIFE

We knew each other in 1990 as students in the same class in same school. Then we never thought we would make our life together for a long time. I wish I have you with me now but I am sure I would not write this story if you were here because as a normal common man, I must not have felt your importance the way I am feeling now. But I think that’s normal and I know you would never mind for not giving you much importance. But I have no shame in confessing you now, that my life without you for the last twenty-four months have been not quite normal. Sadness dominated happiness, inconveniences fared better than conveniences, failures took over successes, losses made better than profits, more inhumanely things happened than humane ones, got salt where sugar was required, and the list is infinite.

The lady that mattered most to me

Without you, the house is empty, and I still don’t want to return home after going out for my official errands. I don’t think I have a home now. I just don’t. I feel it so difficult to put the mess of your absence into order like you left me yesterday although it is (exactly) already 24 months today. I see no reason for you to leave me at this stage of life. I really don’t see the reason. Thank you John P. Read for writing the following poem for me, it gives me such a pleasure.

“I still say I love you

But there is no reply.

I always feel your presence

As if you never left my side.

I remember your comforting voice.

Now there is not a sound.

Only echoes from the past

Follow me around.

You are always by my side

But I can’t hold your hand.

The reason why God took you

I find hard to understand.

Summer days seem much shorter.

Dark nights just linger on.

Dreams turn into nightmares

When the one you love has gone.

But real love never fades.

It still burns like the sun.

Although they are far away.

Those memories go on and on.

Her spirit will never die.

It shines like the stars.

I know you are sleeping in heaven.

But you are living in my heart.”

And yes, as you asked, I have kept your girls at the school you wanted them to study. I am doing your anniversary ceremonies at the place you want me to do. My love for you hasn’t changed although you are not around. Love does not die. Love is not like us who die for sure at some of point of time in life.